Wednesday, April 13, 2022

I Have Lost Hope

I have lost hope in the system. I am more than qualified
to land that new job, but with interview after interview
after interview, I have given up looking for a new job and
I have given up waiting for that promotion. It created 
stress and discontent. Both are not healthy. Physically and
mentally. So, I bide my time for that promotion and take
on extra assignments hoping to get noticed.

I didn't tell you that I got a significant raise and so I am
not as interested in those new jobs, because now I make
more money at where I am at and I don't have to demote
myself. Yes, demote. The only positions that were offered 
to me were Peer Support Specialist. I am beyond that at
my current employment. I am being pigeonholed into a
lower wage earning position by the potential employers.
I feel that it is because of my disability. I can't seem to get
a fair chance. So, I have lost hope that the strength of
stigma is waning. It is still as strong as it was before the
campaign, if not even more so. You get brave and tell 
about your disability in the interview hoping to fit into 
that 7% of disabled employees. I need to tell you. Don't
do it. Hide it. Because, if they find out that you are mentally
ill, they won't hire you. Even if you tell them that you are
in remission for years. The only disabled employees that 
are considered are physically disabled. So, don't do it.
Don't tell.