Mental Illness can be selfish. I know that my mental illness is
selfish. It wants my attention when I am awake, when I am asleep,
when I am at work, when I am at family gatherings...well, you get the
picture.
It lures you. It promises you big rewards. It is a promise of coming home to the real reality you belong to and your suffering is finally over. It tells you that you have a fortune that is being kept from you. You start to believe that just one more step, and everyone will smile at you and collectively say "surprise!" Then all of your worries are gone and finally you will be at peace.
It can make you stay up for days, promising that what revelations you are having, the epiphanies, promising that the ideas that form in your mind are of your own, you invented them. and the residuals and income that come from them have been stolen from you. You think that these ideas were yours to begin with (uniquely your own), but someone, or some people stole your ideas and took the credit for them, leaving you out and lost.
You believe that your family, (all of your relatives are in on it), that your family kidnapped you and treat you like cinderella's step-mother because they know you don't remember things and need little reminders along the way to jog your memory of another time. That you were kidnapped and enslaved, while others take up your identity and reap all of the rewards, making you do all the work while "they" (the imposters) are pampered and constantly stealing your reminders of who you are and where you have come from.
Anyway, mental illness is selfish. It requires so much energy that when it goes away you sleep it off, sometimes for days. This sleep is much needed and a good nights sleep of 10 hours helps to rejuvenate you, preparing you to debrief yourself, gaining self-awareness back. It can sometimes, be real slow and takes many 10-12 hours of sleep to snap out of it. So, sleep it off and prepare for the next episode. You got this.
Vocabulary ABCs (as seen from a patient's perspective) in Mental Health Circles. (a treasure of links providing you more information on what mental illness is like).
How Different We are...here EAST meets WEST in mental health practices.
selfish. It wants my attention when I am awake, when I am asleep,
when I am at work, when I am at family gatherings...well, you get the
picture.
It lures you. It promises you big rewards. It is a promise of coming home to the real reality you belong to and your suffering is finally over. It tells you that you have a fortune that is being kept from you. You start to believe that just one more step, and everyone will smile at you and collectively say "surprise!" Then all of your worries are gone and finally you will be at peace.
It can make you stay up for days, promising that what revelations you are having, the epiphanies, promising that the ideas that form in your mind are of your own, you invented them. and the residuals and income that come from them have been stolen from you. You think that these ideas were yours to begin with (uniquely your own), but someone, or some people stole your ideas and took the credit for them, leaving you out and lost.
You believe that your family, (all of your relatives are in on it), that your family kidnapped you and treat you like cinderella's step-mother because they know you don't remember things and need little reminders along the way to jog your memory of another time. That you were kidnapped and enslaved, while others take up your identity and reap all of the rewards, making you do all the work while "they" (the imposters) are pampered and constantly stealing your reminders of who you are and where you have come from.
Anyway, mental illness is selfish. It requires so much energy that when it goes away you sleep it off, sometimes for days. This sleep is much needed and a good nights sleep of 10 hours helps to rejuvenate you, preparing you to debrief yourself, gaining self-awareness back. It can sometimes, be real slow and takes many 10-12 hours of sleep to snap out of it. So, sleep it off and prepare for the next episode. You got this.
Vocabulary ABCs (as seen from a patient's perspective) in Mental Health Circles. (a treasure of links providing you more information on what mental illness is like).
How Different We are...here EAST meets WEST in mental health practices.